"Where have you been all my miserable life?"
Emma Stone (Grace Faraday), Gangster Squad (2013)
My arms move around him, his around me, and he kisses me, so hot and severe that I feel it all the way in my toes. We fall back to the blanket and I’m outside of myself, twisting my legs with his to get closer, closer, closer. He moves on top of me, the weight of his body pressing me into the sand, kissing my lips, my neck, his hands tangled in my hair, then reaching under my shirt, and I’m floating, all the old, tired heartsickness evaporating. My whole entire heart evaporatingTwenty Boy Summer, Sarah Ockler
You like someone, and they are already with someone else. And they are being nice to you, too nice even. This isn’t so wrong right? Maybe you are asking that yourself. Because if he or she is in love with their boyfriend or girlfriend why would they be nice to you?
Ask this to yourself, will they leave their boyfriend or girlfriend for you?
But, are you sure he or she won’t do the same once you two got together? Think again. They maybe sway by you but if they have that tendency chances are they will do it again. Don’t tell yourself that you are special. That he won’t do it to you because you are different from the others. You. Are. Not. He or she is just a douche bag or is probably a player or something.
This will further confuse you right? They are constantly nice to you, like flirting even. Maybe they are born that way. There are people who are just to friendly who borderlines into flirting. They might be doing that because he or she thinks that they are just being a good friend. Although there are those people who are just flirts. They don’t really care if that they are giving false hoping and hurting you in the process. Or maybe you are just giving his thoughtfulness a different meaning.
Being caught in the middle is not easy. But it’s always up to you what choices you are going to make. No one can really tell you what to do especially if you are already determined. Just remember that it is not just about you and this person, there also that someone else who’s involve in all this. Someone who’ll get hurt. And in the end you’ll never know you might get hurt in the process too.
I want to be selfish, selfish in ways of accepting love given to me. I won’t push anyone away anymore. I won’t feel guilty. I’ll just take what I can get, but now that I think more of it, I’m being more cold-hearted than ever.
Ever been in one? Not all of us are blessed with someone who loves us and someone we love in return. Most of the time we experience what most would call a one sided love. Either you were in love with that someone who is in love with someone who doesn’t love you or worse that he or she is already in love someone else.
So what are you really supposed to do if you ever find yourself in that position? Should you pursue it? Keep loving from a far?
No. Loving someone who wouldn’t love you in return is a waste of your time and affection. If they don’t give a fuck about you why should you? If they don’t appreciate you why should you push yourself in them and wait to be loved in return? That’s just stupid. If they have feelings for you, you wouldn’t be in this situation in the first place.
The thing is, this is tricky. Because sometimes, like one in a million, it works out just fine. That person realizes that they are actually in love with you and is so stupid for not being with you. But this usually ends in heart break. In listening to sad songs on repeat, feeling bitter of everyone who are blissfully in love, and just in moping in a corner, hoping that someday that person would turn their heads and see how great you are for them.
Well, it really is a gamble and you’re betting for something with a high probability of losing. Yes, winning might be one of the greatest feeling there is, but losing is so much more terrifying. Are you willing to bet everything?