- Girl: Do you know? I spent a lifetime learning one thing. Possession is the beginning of losing it. But in the end I still couldn't learn. I can't accept. Having youth is actually the beginning of losing youth. Having a marriage is actually the beginning of losing the marriage. Having reputation, actually, it can also be lost. Having wealth is also the same. Health is also the same. Even, raising a dog is the same. Possessing love... Oh God! Losing a loved one is even harder to accept. Why is it that everything I pursue in life, I actually start losing it, as soon as I gain possession of it! If I never have it... Then I won't have anything to lose, isn't it right?
- Boy: Now, do you know... the reason why... I don't love you?
- Girl: Because possession...
- Boy: ...is the beginning of losing it.
"Where have you been all my miserable life?"
Emma Stone (Grace Faraday), Gangster Squad (2013)
My arms move around him, his around me, and he kisses me, so hot and severe that I feel it all the way in my toes. We fall back to the blanket and I’m outside of myself, twisting my legs with his to get closer, closer, closer. He moves on top of me, the weight of his body pressing me into the sand, kissing my lips, my neck, his hands tangled in my hair, then reaching under my shirt, and I’m floating, all the old, tired heartsickness evaporating. My whole entire heart evaporatingTwenty Boy Summer, Sarah Ockler
You like someone, and they are already with someone else. And they are being nice to you, too nice even. This isn’t so wrong right? Maybe you are asking that yourself. Because if he or she is in love with their boyfriend or girlfriend why would they be nice to you?
Ask this to yourself, will they leave their boyfriend or girlfriend for you?
But, are you sure he or she won’t do the same once you two got together? Think again. They maybe sway by you but if they have that tendency chances are they will do it again. Don’t tell yourself that you are special. That he won’t do it to you because you are different from the others. You. Are. Not. He or she is just a douche bag or is probably a player or something.
This will further confuse you right? They are constantly nice to you, like flirting even. Maybe they are born that way. There are people who are just to friendly who borderlines into flirting. They might be doing that because he or she thinks that they are just being a good friend. Although there are those people who are just flirts. They don’t really care if that they are giving false hoping and hurting you in the process. Or maybe you are just giving his thoughtfulness a different meaning.
Being caught in the middle is not easy. But it’s always up to you what choices you are going to make. No one can really tell you what to do especially if you are already determined. Just remember that it is not just about you and this person, there also that someone else who’s involve in all this. Someone who’ll get hurt. And in the end you’ll never know you might get hurt in the process too.
I want to be selfish, selfish in ways of accepting love given to me. I won’t push anyone away anymore. I won’t feel guilty. I’ll just take what I can get, but now that I think more of it, I’m being more cold-hearted than ever.